When I get like this, there is only my Lord and Savior who I can turn to that calms me and gives me peace. I do so by way of prayer. It can be in thought, it can be in the spoken word, but it can also be in writing. As a writer, I find that putting my prayers on paper makes them much clearer to me and it also affords me the opportunity to revisit or revise them to deal with those times in the future that I might have the same feelings again. Because, you see, as a mere mortal, I know that allowing these thoughts to enter my heart will surely come again, but I vow to continue my fight to keep myself true to Him.
Here is my prayer:
Dear Lord and Savior, I come to you today with a heavy heart which is troubled. I worry about the future for me and my loved ones in a nation which seems to increasingly lose your spirit and love. I am especially concerned about a government that is trying to replace you with its earthly power, and I know that not only is this impossible but it is also futile.
At the same time, I find myself becoming angry. My anger is focused at those who are trying to implement these changes even though I know that the feelings I have are never the answer. Help me to apply your guidance in these situations and use love as my response even though professing love toward those who I feel are doing me wrong is a very difficult thing to do. Calm me, soothe me, and give me the peace to clearly control what I am thinking and use your strength to make me better, stronger and more capable of being a Christian soldier, using love as the way to reach those who would wrong me, my loved ones and the country that I love. Make me an example of goodness and light so that I might influence others by living the Christian life.
Help me not to falter, although I know that I will, and keep me assured in knowing that I may always look to you for help and guidance in such future times, always remembering that by loving and following you and your example in thought, word and deed the day will come when I, too, will inherit the promise of Everlasting Life.
I ask this prayer in your name, Amen.
Wow, I feel better already. Now I know I will stray again, but God understands that I, like all mankind, will sin again. But I also know that He will stand by me and be ready to show me the way again whenever I need. All I have to do is ask Him, and that applies to all of His children.
Have a great day with the love of Jesus always in your heart, and may God show us the way, the truth and the life. He is waiting.